... part2

well... my train of thoughts have definitely switched tracks... and i'm no more in that kind of mood anyway... at times like this (normal times that is), i am practically too busy to care bout much... and i'm back to being myself... no idea why i'm always so busy... poor time management probably...

anyway, just felt like blogging so here i am... although my mind right now is truly blank... just rushed through another lab session just now... and in the middle of my break currently...

well, i guess that's it for now... =)

ps: this is just a crappy entry...

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it's been 2 weeks into the new semester and my life has fallen back into that daily routine of a student's life...
nothing much to talk about basically except to say that things are going on rather slowly; actually time moved pretty rapidly, it's just that the things around me ain't keeping up with time...
i was in a horrible mood the past weekend. tons of assignments to be rushed through and yet i didn't wanna move a finger. ok, i'm just lazy.
anyway, thought bout some stuff... these things actually do bother me at times (more than i'd like) but i usually dismiss them without much fuss.
i have been thinking bout how i'm already 22 and yet haven't really achieved anything significant as a person. i'm not talking bout studies or anything like that. i mean doing stuff that makes a difference in ppl's lives. things that make ppl look at me in a different light. honestly i'm quite tired of being looked at as the 'rebellious kid' (although i admit at times i kinda liked that tag)... guess things really do change with time huh?
i looked back at what i have done, what i am doing... and i realized, throughout the years, i've really just been cruising down a path that is already there. and i dun want to do that!
i've been told by a friend that it doesn't matter which road you choose to travel in life, just as long as you leave your footprints behind. i guess that is good enough. but deep down, i dun wanna travel where everyone has been... i wanna lay down a new path for others to travel. i dun wanna just leave my footprint to be washed away in the sands of time.
the sad part? i dun think i can change anything right now... following the path laid down in front of me is hard enough without going astray. keeping up with time, with expectations... everything is so freaking hard. just trying to be who i am is already proving to be a strenuous effort.
i guess doing what i want to do and doing what i have to do is two totally different worlds huh?

ermm... i've gtg.. blogging from uniten's library actually... hopefully this entry will have a part 2 soon (that's if i dun lose my train of thoughts)...

ps: i dunno if i made any sense in what i just wrote but it is basically what i have in my brains right now - unfiltered.

update

just a quick update. today's my first day back in uniten after a 2 week break. the break was good. the trips to penang and redang was particularly fun (pictures and details due later)... but... yes, there's always a but... i didn't do quite well in my previous special semester and my cgpa dropped further... kinda disappointed in that...

anyway, really didn't feel like starting my classes just yet. damn bloody lazy right now. but i guess after a week or two, that mood should be done with. well, at least that's what i hope. =)

btw, i haven't even decided on my time table for this sem yet which is soooo not like me... actually, i haven't even decided on the subjects that i'm gonna take... my gut feeling tells me this is gonna be a long, long semester for me to suffer... hehehe...

well, gotta go for my first class of the sem now... bye2...